long tym no post lerr. hmmm... ai yarhhs. nowadays not really veh interested in blogging anymore... life has changed... TOTALLY. we're out of e tournament and we gotta train e sec ones. OH MAN, tats a torture. e gals are actually alright larhhs. but i always take e malay ones and i really had a hard tym communicating wif dem lorhhs. i lyk damn xin ku man. thank god i knew malay and one of e malay gal tat i coach is able to speak chinese. now... i'm retiring from being a setter. and i miss being one, although i was always e one being blamed and always running for e ball lyk hell. but i noe if i were to be 1 for e b gals, i might cause dem to be pulled down. so... i rather be one of e reserves, coz i noe i'll nvr be in e team. but to be honest, i really envy lingying and shuangx to be able to join e b gurls. haiisss. i sorta regret being a setter, although i may seem to enjoy it. I ENVY THEM FOR BEING ABLE TO TRAIN THEIR FIRST BALL. I ENVY THEM FOR BEING ABLE TO SPIKE LYK ANY SPIKER DOES. I ENVY. but no1 understands... every1 tot i wanna be a setter. but they dunno that actually from e day tat i chose to be a setter, i gave up on everyting. i gave up e chance to be trained lyk anybody, i gave up e chance to learn how to spike, i gave up the chance to even receive a first ball. everytym when we haf trng, i'll be asked to be e setter. watching dem spike and receive, i feel lyk being one too. sumtimes i feel so ridiculous, i've trained for a year and i cant even receive a proper first ball. i shudd say, i did not haf e chance to. dere's 1 tym i was asked to play lyk a normal player. denn i realised i noe nothing. i'm a lyk a STUPID STATUE standing dere, not knowing whr i shudd go, not knowing wad to do. i tink until now, all i noe ish to set. and now even my setting ish betraying mie. at times i feel lyk giving up. i really do. i even thought of juz quitting, without caring whether vlee allows. but if in e first place i did nort join vball, i will not noe zhikai. i will not get to noe all of my teammates. i wuddnt want tat, nvr. its vball tat helped mie to lessen my stress in studies, to brighten up my day. i always look forward to skl. its all becoz of vball, and nort studies. i always hope lessons to end and trng to arrive ASAP. i really love vball. e prob ish, i'm useless. even telling my teammates their mistakes make mie feel guilty. i felt tat i'm so lousy and i wanna tell dem their mistakes summore, i'm lyk so bu yao lian. my cousin ish right. i can only choose between studies and CCA. and... for now, i guess my answers are clear enuff to wake mie up. although now i cant do anyting more to help my teammates, i guess i 'll juz thank dem for giving mie aall those fun and happy moments tat we've had for a year. i really missed euu guys, i noe it will nvr be e same. but i'm proud to be able to be euur setter. thanks pals. today we went to watch b gurl's match. although dey lost, dey played veh veh well. really. euu guys rawk man! i'm proud to be in vball team, i'm proud to haf euu guys as my teammates and seniors. ROCK ON MAN! =D and sorry for being such a lousy setter. p.s. (lingying&shuangx): jiayou. i'll be supporting euu guys.
